Behind The Processing Series is the understanding that trauma is multifaceted, complex, and reveals itself over time. As a “survivor” of sexual violence, this series allows me, my collaborators, the audience, and our nation, to do the work: to processslowly— over time: each concert goes deeply into one aspect of the experience per sitting.

The Processing Series is the opposite of a reduced, essentialized story, which can become a trap for sentimentality, oversimplification, and victim-to-hero narratives. Instead, by dedicating the time to the experience, we can begin to travel through the multidimensional world of trauma and its aftermath, understanding its terrain of loss, conflict, and renewal. Whether we identify as trauma survivors or we hope to be pillars of support for others, the series joins people together to meditate, listen, integrate, and release.

Each concert features a core group of performers as well as several guest performers, and is curated by Lucy Dhegrae.

* indicates a world premiere.

Part I

More Beautiful Than Words Can Tell

Part I explores the struggle to articulate an experience after trauma and features the world premiere of Osnat Netzer’s Philomelos, which explores the “unspeakable” residual effects of trauma through the lens of Shakespeare’s character Lavinia, from Titus Andronicus. This premiere is enveloped by works that speak to themes of frozen voices, broken language, and the body’s ability to communicate beyond language: Dithyramb by Jason Eckardt; Her Disappearance by Bethany Younge; Rapana by Maria Stankova; ?Corporel by Vinko Globokar; and No by Caleb Burhans.

Part II

A Barely Arching Bridge

She Gets to Decide*, by Eve Beglarian, combines personal history, the painting Thérèse Dreaming by Balthus, and the words of Judge Aquilina during the trial of Larry Nassar: "Leave your pain here, and go out and do your magnificent things." Works by Amadeus Regucera, Philippe Leroux, Georges Aperghis, Chaya Czernowin, Peter Kramer, Guillaume de Machaut, and Francis Poulenc speak to the themes of poetic testimony, physical struggle, longing, and pain.

"A barely arching bridge connects the terrible to the tender.” —Rilke

Part III

I Was Breathing

What is the daily at-home experience of a body holding PTSD? Works by Yoko Ono, Pauline Oliveros, Alison Knowles, Pamela Z, Meredith Monk, Kate Soper, and Luciano Berio explore themes of domesticity, and the manic and meditative aspects of self-care. Interludes of Audre Lorde, self-defense classes, and EMDR trips weave through the evening, culminating in the world premiere of ith How to Hold* by Katherine Young which combines several healing modes (EMDR, meditation, physical vibration, group therapy) in an instruction-based score for voice, violin, percussion, and electronics.

Part IV

Frying Pan

The final concert will culminate in a new work* by Angélica Negrón, accompanied by documentary-style interludes of her creation that incorporate pieces of Skype meetings, public conversations, and rehearsal discussions from the earlier stages of this project. Sharing the spotlight is a work co-composed by Negrón and Dhegrae, Frying Pan*, for voice, electronics, and music boxes.